I was born good at building home inside a box.
I was born good at organizing my insides so they look nice and neat for others.
I was born good at fighting the fight and hiding the tears.
So I shouldn’t be judged too harshly when I resort to doing those things. But let’s talk about the weight of carrying the world on your shoulders.
Tell him you love your scars now that you have them, but it hurts knowing and remembering just how you got them. Tell him sometimes you wish you had just been one more privileged kid. Too. Tell him you just want to be happy. Too.
And so what if challenges gave you strength?
So what if the battles gave you character?
How far can those two traits get you these days anyways. Some of the strongest people are still having fights with God and praying for things to change.
You will survive because you have before.
Survival instinct isn’t asleep inside you any longer. I’m pretty sure that’s how these things go. But what do I really know. I don’t mind the idea of having a spirit animal I just wish mine wasn’t a cockroach.
Maybe I’ll keep the stories to myself. The pain locked tight inside.
Or maybe my heart is big enough to carry that, plus love.