heart peel

slowly I peel my heart open as if it were a banana

one sliver at a time

attempting to leave the untouched part of it

safe and intact

fresh and unweathered

but I know eventually I’ll have to stand naked

in my vulnerability,

lower my walls and

pull back my thorns-

 

even the most beautiful rose is nothing

if not loved and adored.

exclusivity agreement

he has no terms

gives without conditions

wants me as I am

unedited, faults and all,

and to offer me anything I want

whenever I want

all he asks for is three things:

my company, attention, and affection.

 

easy. no complications.

 

Meanwhile

I draft four pages of desires

in what I know is a futile attempt to exert control

over the possibility of another heartbreak.

 

And all he wants in return is my love.