not this again

I had such a vivid dream last night

that he was standing right outside my door,

a pile of gifts at his feet,

and when I first saw him my stomach sank and

I thought to myself: not this again

and when he noticed my walls going up he whispered

please let me in

 

I don’t remember what happened next-

everything faded to black as if even in my dreams

my heart can’t face the possibility of

having to give him another chance.

 

it makes perfect sense.

 

the end was much too painful to try again.